Wednesday, 27 January 2010

Riding a Rollercoaster .

Sorry for not blogging for weeks but since my old enemy , Acute Anxiety , reared it's ugly head just before Christmas I've not really felt like it .
The past few weeks have seemed like a Roller Coaster ride of emotions.
We layed my beloved Bobby to rest on the 5th of January in the middle of a snow storm. I bet he was sat on a cloud with a big grin on his face , looking down at us getting frozen.
Since then I've been trying to come to terms with it all . My days have been mixed , some good some bad . For anyone who hasn't suffered from this complaint it's very hard to explain . Tiny things get blown upout of all proportion in your head , each one building on the other till your emotions spill out . My good Doctor calls it wall building.This last weekend has been a nightmare . I seemed to have had a good week but Saturday morning it proved to be wrong . I had a major Axiety Attack which lasted all day and once again I ended up in A&E but this time I was referred to the duty Psyciatrist . After a long talk with him he is going to refer me for councilling. Sunday and Monday I had two more strange attacks and I thought I was going mad. Papa Bear managed to get me in to see my Doctor and DS No 2 came over to take me . The Doctor has put it all down to reaction and he's given me some more tablets . I've spent the last three days on the settee resting and I'm glad to say I feel a lot better , though still very tired.I should get my appointment to see the councilor soon so my head will get sorted . I've been through this twice before and as my DD says I'll get through it again .
With the help of my good family and some very dear friends I hope I can .

On a lighter note we have a lodger . A four legged one .

My DD went down South on Sunday to start 20 weeks training for her new job and not wanting to put her little dog , Maggie , in kennels for that long we agreed to have her for part of the time .So Meg has got a playmate for a while. They get on well to gether and whilst I've been on the settee they have kept me company . Maggie has curled up beside me whilst Meg has been curled up behind my legs so I was nice and cosy . You can't beat animals when your feeling down .
Hopefully I'll get back to regular blogging again really soon .


Xtiand said...

Good to see you blogging again, I've missed reading about your adventures and I hope you soon feel back to your usual self. Animals are good company indeed, Nino and the Polar Dog have been keeping my spirits up each day for the last few months.
Look after yourself and enjoy the lighter nights as Spring approaches.

Dajon said...

Hope you will soon be back to the
Jolly Soul we Love.

Take Care

Great Picture of the dogs

D&J xxxx