Riding a Rollercoaster .

Sorry for not blogging for weeks but since my old enemy , Acute Anxiety , reared it's ugly head just before Christmas I've not really felt like it .

The past few weeks have seemed like a Roller Coaster ride of emotions.

We layed my beloved Bobby to rest on the 5th of January in the middle of a snow storm. I bet he was sat on a cloud with a big grin on his face , looking down at us getting frozen.

Since then I've been trying to come to terms with it all . My days have been mixed , some good some bad . For anyone who hasn't suffered from this complaint it's very hard to explain . Tiny things get blown upout of all proportion in your head , each one building on the other till your emotions spill out . My good Doctor calls it wall building.This last weekend has been a nightmare . I seemed to have had a good week but Saturday morning it proved to be wrong . I had a major Axiety Attack which lasted all day and once again I ended up in A&E but this time I was referred to the duty Psyciatrist . After a long talk with him he is going to refer me for councilling. Sunday and Monday I had two more strange attacks and I thought I was going mad. Papa Bear managed to get me in to see my Doctor and DS No 2 came over to take me . The Doctor has put it all down to reaction and he's given me some more tablets . I've spent the last three days on the settee resting and I'm glad to say I feel a lot better , though still very tired.I should get my appointment to see the councilor soon so my head will get sorted . I've been through this twice before and as my DD says I'll get through it again .

With the help of my good family and some very dear friends I hope I can .

On a lighter note we have a lodger . A four legged one .

My DD went down South on Sunday to start 20 weeks training for her new job and not wanting to put her little dog , Maggie , in kennels for that long we agreed to have her for part of the time .So Meg has got a playmate for a while. They get on well to gether and whilst I've been on the settee they have kept me company . Maggie has curled up beside me whilst Meg has been curled up behind my legs so I was nice and cosy . You can't beat animals when your feeling down .

Hopefully I'll get back to regular blogging again really soon .

New Year .

Happy New Year to you all.

Unfortunately mine hasn't had a very good start . Better start at the beginning.

The weekend before I lost Bobby I had the father and mother of a Panic / Anxiety Attack and ended up in A&E because I frightened the living daylights out of Papa Bear .Suffice to say they weren't much help and packed me off home with two paracetemols and " Go see your GP on Monday ".

We managed to crawl through the weekend and I saw my GP Monday morning. Fortunately I got in to see the Doc who's seen me through my past breakdowns and I didn't have to do much explaining . He reckons it had been building up for a while and asked how I'd been over the past month . After a long chat he figured the bad case of Novemberitis I blogged about was warning bells and I hadn't heard them .He  put me on a course of tablets I've been on before and have to see him again on Monday .

I managed to get through Christmas with my family and seemed to be getting a bit better , I even managed a trip to see my Sister-in Law . But for some reason I began to feel low again yesterday .

This morning saw me have another doosey of an attack which just wouldn't go away . As out of hours doctors aren't much help Papa Bear rang my very good friend Ambermoggie and between them they managed to scrape me off the ceiling .Amber has a very soothing voice and managed to get my breathing under control to which I am very grateful . After I'd calmed down me and Papa Bear went for a walk on the park near us and touch wood I'm still quite calm.I'm hoping it will last but it's comforting to know that Papa Bear is here and Amber and Mr Mog are only at the other end of a telephone . With there help I'll come out the other end of this .

He's Gone .

My Darling Bobby is gone , he passed away quietly early yesterday afternoon. He had pneumonia and didn't respond to treatment . He leaves behind a vast hole in my life .

Rest In Peace Dear Brother .

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I will blog again in the New Year until then I hope you all have a Happy and Peaceful Christmas .

Dressers and Good Friends

I've got two nice things to write about today :0) This lunch time I met up with my good friend Jean . We have been friends for quite a few years now and used to work on the same craft cicuit . Me with my crafts and she with her fabulous handmade cards . We have remained friends even though we don't do the shows anymore . We try to meet up at least once a year , mostly around Christmas time . Usually at Oswaldtwistle Mills , which is half way for both of us . We had a lovely lunch and caught up with all our news . As I had been rather stressed out all week with getting the new car it was a nice change to relax . When we'd had our lunch we went for a stroll round to see if there were any goodies. I couldn't believe my eyes when we went into the kitchenware department for there on a stand was something I had been on the look out for .I''l start at the begining. I've always wanted a dresser and the other week we went into our favourite charity furniture shop and saw

This , an American colonial dresser .I simply had to have it .It was perfect for the dining room .

And you can just see on the shelves what caught my eye in the kitchenware department .

The most perfect crockery to go on my dresser . American folk art cups and plates .

All with farm animals .

The cutest sheep .

I got big dinner plates to match but they are to big for the shelves so I have used them to place the two matching fruit bowls that I bought , on .

And to finish it all off I got this felt garland to got round the top .

It all looks gorgeous and I'm very pleased with the look .

I've always loved the American Folk Art style and used a lot of these fabrics when I was making patchwork quilts . I'm going to have to make some more now to match the dresser ;0)

Grassington Dickensian Festival .

The alarm clock went off at 5-00am and strangly enough we'd both slept through. This is somewhat of a phenomenon as when we do Grassington neither of us sleeps well for fear of not hearing the alarm .

It wasn't as busy as past years but trade was steady all day . This is DH at the back of the stall .

As promised a pic of my new costume . The long term stall holders still dress up in Dickensian costume but unfortunately the newcomers don't ,which is sad as I think it adds to the atmosphere . It wouldn't have happened in Mrs Freebury's day . She was the lady who took charge of the Craft Market and was very firm about dress code .

Here's a full length . Sorry the pics are a bit dark , i'll try for better ones next week .

All in all it's been a good few days . We did well at Grassington , I had a customer call on Sunday who bought loads of yarn , two decent orders from my Blogshop and yesterday I picked up my new car .

There has been a down side though . My brother Bobby is not well . He has been moved down to the medical ward , which in my opinion is where he should have been sent in the first place . At last he is being seen by a doctor every day and I'm hopeful he will start to improve again. I really do miss him . I felt it when I went to pick my car up , as usually when I get a new car he is the first person I go and see to show off . I drove past his hospital window though just to show him :0)

The weather here is still miserable but the weather forcast says better days by the end of the week . I hope we get some good bright frosty days then we can have a good long walk , instead of short , shower dodging ones .

Grassington Dickensian Festival .

Well folks it's that time of year again and Grassington is upon us once more .

So tomorrow we will be getting up at rediculouso'clock to go

Here ,to the little village of Grassington in Yorkshire { it's ok I've had all my jabs he he !:0) }

The festival has been going for over twenty years and i've been doing it for the past sixteen . I stongly recommend a visit if you can . It's a lovely Christmas day out . If you decide to go, me and DH will be up in the Devonshire Institute ,at the top of the village, please say hello .

Now I have a bit of an announcement businesswise. A couple of weeks ago I attended the Manchester Yarn Day , organised by the Manchester Yarn Collective.I had a brilliant day and have taken up their invitation to join them . It is a collective of small Independent Dyers of Yarn and Fibre and after the success of the yarn day we are starting a Sock Yarn Club between us , called Northern Soles . You can get all the details on the website here .  There are six of us dyeing yarn , one for each of the six months sign up and I will be dying the yarn in March . So if you were thinking of joining a sock yarn club why not take a look .

Well that's enough natter got looooooaads to do .

It's December Yeh!!!!!!!

From the title it would be sujested that I'm glad we are in December . To damn right i am . As I've said I HATE November . To me it is the worst month of the year and this one has been no exception . It 's been wet and depressing all the way through . This past week I have suffered the worst case of Novemberitis for a good few years . I got up on Sunday morning to go to Samlesbury Hall for the Craft Fair when all I wanted to do was stay under the duvet till Dec 1st .

Well December is here . Yesterday we got our first frost and the Sun shone , as is it doing today .

So dear readers you can understand my spirits are now lifting .

Last night was full Moon and it was clear to see early evening .

We have two Moons this month which is unusual .The next will be on the 31st and will be a Blue Moon hence the saying " Once in a Blue Moon " as they don't occur very often . It's a very magical and powerful time between the two .

We are gearing up for the weekend when we do our first Grassington of the Season. I've sorted out a new costume that just needs tweeking then I'll post pics .I've not had much to make as I am selling off a lot of my stock to make way for new and exciting things , which I will showcase on here .

Next week I take delivery of my new " Granny's Bus " . I'm afriad the Galaxy has hed her day and is being pensioned of  . Again pics to come .

Rolf Harris .

This guy was on Paul O'Grady's Show last night talking about his new Christmas single . It's FABULOUS !!! Anyway don't take my word for it go see it here on You Tube . I bet you'll be humming the tune for the rest of the day :0) Hopefully it will stop this years XFactor winner getting to number one and we'll have a decent . good old fashioned Chritmas tune at the top of the charts in the same ilk as Wizard and Slade .